If Tomorrow Starts Without Me.

If tomorrow starts without me,

and I'm not here to see...

if the sun should rise and find your eyes

all filled with tears for me,

I wish so much you wouldn't cry

the way you did today

While thinking of the many things

we didn't get to say.

I know how much you love me,

as much as I love you;

and each time that you think of me

please, know I miss you too.

But when tomorrow starts without me,

please try to understand

That an Angel came and called my name

and took me by the hand.

She said my place was ready,

in Heaven up above,

And that I'd have to leave behind

all those I've ever loved.

I pulled away and took a breath

"But you don't understand....

My Angel, I am not just one....

I am part of another man."

She looked at me, confused, I think,

"Look and you will see. This other man

Is Chris, my Twin,.. he's also a

part of me."

"I'll go with you, I am not scared

if what they said is true.

But I'm afraid I can't stay long,

for there's something I must do."

"I promised him "FOREVER"

that I'd be by his side.

And forever isn't long for a Twin

who has watched the other cry."

"Please understand I need to stay

and do all that I can do.

He cannot be alone down here,

He'll never make it through."

She nodded in agreement and

we started on our way.

But I turned to reassure you,

"Chris, I'll be back today."

But when I went to walk away

tears fell from my eyes.

For all my life I always thought

It'd be no big deal to die.

I had so much to live for

so much yet left to do.

It seemed almost impossible

that I was leaving you.

I thought of all the yesturdays

and the special bond we shared.

I thought of all the fun we had

the good times and the bad.

If I could relive yesturday,

just even for a while,

I'd say Goodbye and kiss you

and maybe see you smile.

But then I finally realized

that this could never be.

For emptiness and memories

would take the place of me.

And when I thought of all the things

I might miss come tomorrow,

I thought of you, my best, best friend

And my heart filled up with sorrow.

I fully was aware of the life

I chose to leave.

The best is yet to come, Brother.

It's just for now, we grieve.

And as I walked through Heaven's Gates

I strangely felt at home.

When God looked down and smiled at me

from his golden throne.

"Gregg, this is eternity.

It's all I've promised you.

Today your life on Earth has passed,

But here Life starts anew.

I promise no tomorrow,

Because today will always last.

And since each day's the same up here

There's no longing for the past.

You have been so faithful to me.

So trusting and so true.

Though there were times you did some things

you knew you shouldn't do.

But you have been forgiven

And now at last you're free.

So come and make yourself at home

Enjoy Eternity!"

But Chris, before I do that....

I need one thing from you.

Please tell the boys I love them

and that I miss them too.

I'm doing my best, I'm new up here

But I'll do what they say.

I'm looking over the one that was born

and the one that is on the way.

And as for you...look deep inside

and that is where I'll be.

I've never really left....you are a part of me.

Gail Stasio